"The hope that keeps me moving Is in Your promises to me. And right now that's enough, It's gonna have to be"

I AM ALONE...always.

And you will never know when I'm sad.

because I won't tell you.

Why do I always feel like a burden?

And just how do I make it go away?

And I don't want anyone to save me,

I just want the power to do it on my own,

Alone.

I am the only one who can make it go away.

This is how I feel...but it's not true. I don't know how to reach out anymore. Every time I reached out before it was pointless, I got pushed down even farther by the person who I thought would listen and help me. I'm paralyzed and afraid. It's keeping me from my God, my family, but most of all, peace. I want the security of peace. Knowing that no matter what happens I will be safe in God's arms someday...I used to feel him holding me when I got sad..but I've even pushed him away..my very best friend. Lord, help me. You can't possibly be finished with me yet. Please help me to never forget that you are constantly making me in to the woman that you want me to be, even when I can't see it.

Yours Truly,

Charissa