Dear World,

I find it funny that people who believe in evolution think creation is insane..but hey, people who believe in creation think evolution is crazy too...
stop putting each other down
stop trying to make the other person feel stupid
agree the disagree
The end.

I only wish that I weren't so dumb about this topic so I don't sound like an idiot while trying to explain why I believe the way I do.

Yours Truly,
Charissa

"I can't pretend that life is fair every day, or that faith comes easy"

I just thought that I would share this. Jill Paquette is one amazing writer.


Yours Truly,
Charissa

Red

The blood we all bleed
The flower that came from a seed
Energy
Energy, that I desperately need

Out of every other shade and hue
I still seem to always find you
And all the while
All this time, he knew

As the sun goes down you make your way
Across the sky for another day
Beauty
Beauty, in the things that he would say

You know that you mean love to me
And I find love in all I see
Running through my veins
The passion to set free

From all life's chains
We found a hope that still remains
And anger
It takes away from what we could gain

So I'll think of you, the color red
The meaning and the things he said
As God, and all the ones I love
Come rushing through my head

Late at night, while I lie awake in bed.


 ♥

Yours Truly,
Charissa

well...

my last post may have been a little harsh and a little impulsive. But hey, that's just how I can be from time to time. Maybe you really do feel the same. How am I to know? I don't feel any different and I still have so much trust. People are so much more than what they give themselves credit for, you just have to find the people who won't ever let you forget that, the ones who will remind you that you can be better today than you were yesterday, but that it's okay to make mistakes because you have the strength, and the ability, to pick yourself back up. So basically, what I'm saying is that I could be the one, but only time will tell. For now I am grateful for what I have been given and I will do my best to never ask for more than you can give.

On a lighter note, I'm glad that my necklace got broken the other day. Even though I could have fixed it I decided that it'd be better if I found something new. I realized that I've been holding onto things that have hurt me in my past and I need to just let those things go. That necklace was with me through a lot of heartache and I don't need to carry all that around with me anymore.

The Phoenix symbolizes long life, rebirth, and especially resurrection or reconstruction after destruction by fire.

My life was burned to the ground and I've been rebuilding it. Hopefully this can be a reminder of the new life that I have that begins with the rising of the sun, the dawning of a new day, each and every morning.


Yours Truly,
Charissa

I've got

some stupid text message saved to my drafts. Something about everything will be okay because we have each other, you fight for me and I fight for you, people only wish they had what you and I have...imagine if I would have actually said that to someone who doesn't even feel the same way. How silly of me. How completely and utterly insane is it that you call to say you don't know how you feel, as I'm about to send a message like that. ha....and ouch. that one hurt. I want to scream at you for confusing me.

That is all,
Yours Truly,
Charissa

Because God's love is better than LIFE. The only true love that exists in this world, the only thing that isn't diluted by fear, anger, pain. The only thing that lasts forever.


Yours Truly,
Charissa

What is wrong with me? If only I could figure it out...

My depression and substance abuse comes from my mother's side of the family..and my anger and detachment come from my father's...hmmmm.What can I do? Was I really just born this way? Will I always have to have the help of some prescribed drug to feel normal, to feel motivated? If only I could be more like my mother. If only I could just make myself do the things I know I need to do. I am so overwhelmed by the feeling of hopelessness that I want to just be gone. But it stays in the front of my mind through everything, keeping me at a distance from things. Even the things that I love most.

Lord, please help me. I constantly cry for you, yet I won't let you help me when I think I can do it all on my own. Silence my pride, my doubts, save me from myself.

Yours Truly,
Charissa